Am I Good Enough Now?©

I would sit by the mailbox
Just waiting for that letter.
Telling me I got in.
Telling me I was good enough.
The doubtful feeling grew worse
The letter never came.

What if I don't want to be you?
I want to be me.
Failiure, fears and screw ups.

Am I good enough now?
Can I be in your life?
I just want to know what it feels like.
To be loved,
To be cared for.
So, Am I good enough now?

I waited for you today.
Once again you didn't show.
I don't know why I want it so much.
You care has taught me never to trust anyone.
To rely only on you.
What if there is someone out there?
Someone who knows me.
Someone who is always proud of me,
No matter what I do.

Am I good enough now?
Can I be in your life?
I just want to know what it feels like.
To be loved,
To be cared for.
So, Am I good enough now?

Could you make this any harder?
Where will I go if I don't make the cut?
You planned my life with out my consent.
My life is no longer yours.
I withdraw.

Am I good enough now?
Can I be in your life?
I just want to know what it feels like.
To be loved,
To be cared for.
So, Am I good enough now?

~End~

I wrote this one during a maths test. I wrote it because currently I'm going through the hell of picking subjects for my final years of school. I currently have 13 units, but I'm dropping to 10 or 12 units in year 12. But I wrote it because my mother had started to plan my subjects without asking me, and I'm very protective of my subjects because my school world and my home world are two completely places, and I would like to keep it that way for as long as I can because if they were to collide then that would be a major catastrophe resulting in the eventual kicking out of home. But I was just angry and I thought this was a healthy way to do it by using the wonderful talents that God has given me.

Peace & Love
xx Lu

Your Everything I Am©

Looking for love in all the wrong places.
Searching for a familiar face.
There were fights,
There were tears.
I was bruised on the outside,
I was broken on the inside.
My life was upside down.

Suddenly you come around,
Making me a better life.
Taking control of the uncontrolable
Turning me right side up.

Your everything I am,
You make my heart complete.
When trouble finds me,
Your already there.
Nothing in this world
Could replace my love for you
Because your everything I am.

A blip on the radar screen,
Taken in by the world
Only to be spat back out.
They stole my crown
and raided my dignity
Alone and crushed.

Suddenly you come around,
Making me a new life.
Taking control of the uncontrolable,
Fixing my stinging wounds.

Your everything I am,
You make my heart complete.
When trouble finds me,
Your already there.
Nothing in this world
Could replace my love for you
Because your everything I am.

(Instrumental Solo)

Your everything I am,
You make my heart complete.
When trouble finds me,
Your already there.
Nothing in this world
Could replace my love for you
Because your everything I am.

~ End ~

I wrote this after it came to me at like 10:00 pm. I was inspired by the band that came to school that day (read about it in my other blog http://smiling-at-him.blogspot.com/) And the lead singer whose name is Becky. She was just so cool and well I don't have any words to describe her she is simply that cool. Her faith is so strong and its so encouraging. AND she's from Canada which like triples her cool factor.
Hope you all liked the new song. There is another one soon but I have to finish that. Should be done tonight at some stage...after I finish my Geography Assessment.
Love you all!! <3

PS. You steal...I will find you.

Heartfelt Ballad

I feel something pulling me down.
Taking away my pride and replacing my crown,
When your not around.
But then I see the the signs rising from the water,
Turning me upside down.

Just How Much He Loves Me©

His mercy, His grace.

Nothing could ever replace it.

He took a chance and rescued me.

His love, His tender care are what keep on the ground.

His gave everything for me.

It was there all along, I never wanted to see

Just how much he loves me.

They all said it was fake

How could I make that mistake

But now I see,

Just how much he loves me

My ignorance, and lack of understanding.

The harder I push the more he drew me in.

My hate, my evil.

I was scared to take the chance.

My choice, My life.

It was there all along,

I never wanted to see
Just how much he loves me.
They all said it was fake
How could I make that mistake
But now I see,
Just how much he loves me

He picked me up

Took me with out a sound.

I stripped myself of my pride and of my crown.

Letting the tears fall down my face

He confessed,

It was there all along,

I never wanted to see

Just how much he loves me.

They all said it was fake

How could I make that mistake

But now I see,

Just how much he loves me.


This is a song I wrote just now infact as I was watching YouTube (Go YouTube!!) I was actually watching two songs from my (currently) favourite band. They were at first a kiddy band but now they are writing some really good songs, with some really profound lyrics. The songs are called 'Your Smile' and 'Flying Away'. Both songs are by 'The Naked Brothers Band, oh and don't worry they are fully clothed... But this particular song is written for a guy who will never ever give up on me and what ever I do he will only love me more. His name is God.

DON'T STEAL! I OWN THESE

Losing Her©

It's been a while since we talked.

It's been a while since being with you cured it all.

Where did it all go wrong?

When did it become so hard just to be your friend?

You make me feel so out of place,

You take what you want and

Don't realise who you are hurting.

It's so hard talking to you.

Why did everything have to change?

You moved on leaving us all behind.

I didn't want anything to change

You make out like you were someone who cared

You embarrassed us all.

Look at yourself,

smirking your way through.

Your unbelievable the way you kill us all just to be you.

This was my first real attempt at some poetry. It probably isn't very good, but I wrote it when I was going through a hard time with my one of my friends. She didn't know that I was having these problems but it was just kind of a mental thing. I wrote it originally as song lyrics but I dont think that is going to work out, I just write the musical part of a song. I hope you enjoy it. I dedicate this to anyone who is having problems with anyone that they were previously close to, or people who just like depressing poetry.